"Yeah, no, I definitely kept it to myself. Squashed it down, all that fun stuff," she says, her voice wry, because it hadn't been fun at all. This still isn't fun, because she's not used to being uncertain about anything. She likes knowing where she stands, but she has no idea how to bring it up or even if she should.

"But it's just, I don't know. Reggie likes to talk big, we both know that, but he's kind of had a totally different life from me and you. I'm pretty sure I scare the shit out of him half the time."